Actors.

Some people think that actors are overrated. I used to agree with them because I always thought that being a part of that industry didn't really affect the world in such a way that scientists, engineers, or architects did. Now I know that I was wrong, and I will be the first one to admit that. 

Actors are most definitely not overrated. Think about it this way, actors offer an escape. This world we live in is now so hectic, so busy, and so messy. When you are watching a film, or a show, don't you forget about all the nonsense, and just drown in a whole new world? Yes, you do. Actors give us something that we will never find if not for them. We may think that their work is all about the glitz and the glamor, but it's not. Their work is about mastering an art. It's about an art that translates into a version of reality. We get lost in their world. In the world that they created: shifts of expressions, changes of the mood, tears streaming down faces, laughter surrounding the room, and if they are masters, cheeks blushing on command.

Actors save us from reality. We owe them a lot. Maybe, just maybe, they are the sole reasons as to why not everyone has gone completely insane. 

Want.

Have you ever wanted something so bad that all you ever do is think of ways how to get what you want, or imagine scenarios that occur when what you want finally happens? You're probably going to say yes because this happens to everyone. But have you ever wondered how you could have possibly wanted something so bad at one point in your life, and not want it anymore now?

Love and loss, desire and regret, attention and apathy. All these feelings contradict each other, yet they coexist. As with passions, and drives, and determination, there comes regrets, and doubts, and questions. These feelings can surface at exactly the same moment, or light years apart. We are in control of so many things, but when it comes to feelings like these, control seeps through our finger tips. 

Embrace this freedom, crave for the changes, dance with surprises, and don't ever let the need for control to govern your actions. Sometimes, only sometimes, all the universe wants from us is for us to hand over our cares, and to just live.

Intricate Lines.

There are times when I get disappointed; I stumble upon an unsuspecting rock, or I miss a step in the staircase. It gets me off-balance, but I try to shake it off. Irritated at what happened, another mishap occurs. It's a system, and it's all intertwined. Moments like these require pauses and stops. To stop and to look at things from an outsider's point of view. Take a while to take a breath, there's no need to rush. There's beauty in every breakdown.

Reasons.

We're all here for different reasons. I went to the chapel this morning, prayed to my God. I saw other people there, but I knew we were all being listened to. It's the way it works. The God others speak to may not be the same one I picture, but I know there's only one. Different representations and different symbols, but one common destination. None of us know for sure. It's the type of thing that we only ever find out when we're already there, so let's just all wait and see. In the mean time, do whatever you think will get you there, and wish it works.

Tired.

I'm so tired. I can't explain it because once I do, my schedule probably won't seem that hectic. I still think it is, though, or maybe it's because of all the requirements that need to be submitted, all the deadlines that need to be met, and all the extra useless worrying. I would like very much to be able to sit down, and simply not think of anything. No worries, no deadlines, no requirements. All I ask for is a moment of silence and calmness. 

This sort of tired can't be fixed with rest. This sort of tired needs an escape. Lying down possibly only makes it worse because I feel like when I lie own, I'm not helping myself by starting with one of my projects, or finishing another. I need to remember that sometimes, it's OK to rest, it's OK to lay your head on a pillow, close your eyes, and breathe deeply. 

Because I know that whatever I'm worrying about now will not matter in the future. 

xx,

B

Lost.

When I'm on a trip, walking on streets I've never set foot on, it's actually quite thrilling to get lost. To turn on a wrong corner, or to keep walking when you should have already entered an ally. Being lost in a place where no one knows your name sets your heartbeat in motion with the universe.

xx

B

Slip.

That moment when you are about to slip away then you are pulled right back in again. It's a feeling of reassurance, a feeling of security. It brings peace hope once again. That moment, you smile a simple smile. Even if no one is sees, it's your way of saying 'thank you' to the universe. That moment is a pleasant feeling, it really is. 

xx

B

Fear.

"I'm afraid because I'm unsure, I'm unsure because I doubt, I doubt because I am afraid."

Sometimes we too willingly allow fear to govern our decisions. We allow being afraid to control what we think of, and worse, what we do. It shouldn't be, it shouldn't be. It's so easy to say that it shouldn't be, but it's so hard to change your mood to make you believe that it really shouldn't be. Fear is a part of us. Fear is the feeling that sits in the back of every situation. Fear is the feeling that stares at you and tries to make you believe that it's not possible, that it's not going to be okay. Fear works hand in hand with worry, both feelings try to drain you, but they know they can't win. They can't win, unless we allow them to win because we are in control. 

One tip for everyone out there:

a simple smile can destroy fear. If not destroy it, a smile will make fear sit back down, a smile will put fear in its' place. We are in control.

 

xx

B

Time.

The lady let her hair down

There was no time now

The moments just moved about and slipped away

There was a feeling of contentment 

Refreshing, so new

There was no time now

It all happened at once and never at all

The lady stopped for awhile and fixed her smile

It was a bright day after a dark night

At this moment, there was no time

...

 

xx

B

Life.

    And I’m just like all you other souls out there. Trying to figure out what the hell it is I’m meant to do down here. It’s not an easy thing to do; I don’t even know where to start. People try and shape me, and they mask it by telling me to ‘follow your heart.’ I haven’t yet figured out the language which it speaks, but I do promise daily to listen when it weeps. I’m actually glad I have no guide. I believe they only try their way. I need to learn how to make mistakes, I need to first stray away. It’s my time to climb towers, to party hard, to make it through. I’m going to stop allowing people to consume my thoughts because what are thoughts to me, but a threat to creating memories? Bid me goodbye because I’ve finally chosen to live. I dare you to choose to wake up. We all know a life without crazy adventures, is a life without moments to laugh at.

xx

B

    "It has now dawned on me that once we appreciate what we have, we will then receive everything it is we forgot we wanted."

This was a thought that came to me when I unexpectedly got something I've been wanting for a long time. I've realized that the first step into creating the life you've always imagined is appreciation and gratitude. Once you are thankful for all of the blessings and amazing things in your life, the universe reacts by giving you more blessings and amazing things. It's really all about frequency. Whatever frequency it  is that you are projecting, that same frequency will be thrown right back at your face. I say it with such bluntness because that's the truth. It really will be thrown right back at your face, so wouldn't you rather have a bouquet of daisies, or a pile of shit thrown in your face? 

Feel good, feel better, and one day feel amazing. 

xx

B

I'm working on my application form for the University of British Columbia (UBC) and there's one item that I just can't get past. The item goes:

"Please include any additional information that you would like the Admissions Committee to consider when reviewing your application. (maximum 100 words)"

What in the world could possibly catch the Admissions Committee's attention? I've already told them all about my academics and athletics and personal achievements, so what more could they be looking for? This item, by the way, is optional. I still think I should fill it out though because it'll add an edge on my work over that of other applicants. But seriously, what should I put? 

I honestly want to tell them something like when I get in, and graduate from their prestigious university, I will make a name for myself. And when I do make a name for myself, the world will know that UBC brought me to where I am. I don't know how to say it though...

I'll give myself til the first week of November. I will have had to submit the application by then.

Any suggestions? I'd appreciate it.

xx

B

Journal Entry: May 23, 2011 (monday)

I'm not too sure about my life right now. I used to have things all planned out- in my head, at least- but now my mind is blank and my heart is open. I am what I am, and I'm growing everyday. I want things then I don't. I feel things then those feelings go away. I am a river continuously flowing. The water, my life, my works, my thoughts constantly in motion. My dreams, my goals, my wonders all so possible. In this moment of pure vulnerability, I feel alive. I feel.

xx

B

Whenever I hear the rain gently falling from the sky, I feel the need to write. Write about anything, just as long as I write. Whenever I feel pain or fear, I feel the need to write. Write about anything, just as long as I write. Whenever I feel excitement or joy, I feel the need to write. Write about anything, just as long as I write. I’m not too sure if I’m any good at writing, but if there’s one lesson I’ve learned in my 17 years is that passion drives any goal into the light of success. As long as you really want to do it for yourself and not for anyone else, then it is possible. Forget about trying to please others, and forget wondering if they will approve of your work. Go for instincts, go for pleasure, go for passion, go for dreams, go for everything you’ve ever wanted, and forget about everything else.

Now a pleasant thought before I go to bed:

 

Goodnight, everyone!

xx

B

Ideal Society

An essay I wrote for my Political Science class:

IDEAL SOCIETY

            I recognise the fact that not everyone has the same “ideal society.” Opinions are varied all through out the world depending on who lives in what type of society. My stand on an ideal society is of course my very own sort of, as Plato mentioned in Republic, utopia. Utopia is an ideal society that possesses the perfect socio-politico-legal system. This system must be in sync and each factor cannot do without the other. These three factors- social, political, and legal- should co-exist without any being dominant over the others.

            With that being said, I think that an ideal society should definitely possess a government in order for there to be a fixed system that the citizens can refer to when in uncommon situations. Rules are necessary, and it is a given that there must be a group of people to execute these rules, or so-called laws. The power of the government should not be absolute; the government officials should merely be guidance when in need. The type of government system would have to be democratic because I think that the higher the involvement rate of the citizens, then the more unlikely it is to have all these needs for transparency as is needed in our society today. If the government functions without even just a spec of corruption, the money will better circulate among the people in the society. And if there’s a better circulation of money, less people will be found sleeping on the streets.

            It is impossible for all the citizens to be of equal rank; therefore, the emergence of social classes is inevitable. Social classes may be of necessity when talking about job opportunities because it is a known fact that not everyone has the same abilities. Some people do better than others, and that’s because some people work harder than others, and it would be unjust if there will be the same amount of benefits handed to those who work, and to those who only depend on the governments help.

            International relations play a key role in the success and the development of a society. A state cannot keep to themselves in hope of becoming the “hegemon” because then, there will be no comparison to other states that are obviously doing better. One good example is North Korea, there, there are no individual opinions. The citizens are controlled by their leader, and no one in the state knows what’s going on in the outside world. Competition is necessary in an ideal society because that’s the only possible way that improvement is witnessed.

            An ideal society should have government officials who are merely spectators, and if necessary, judges, citizens who are involved and who are willing to contribute to the state’s development, and an international relations system that allows competition and interaction with other international competitors.

Suspended

I hate the suspense of having something suspended in time. I dislike waiting, wanting, and wishing because I know it's possible to do without the three.

We can have anything we want, absolutely anything. It's easy to live by the saying what happens, happens, but I know that that's not true. YOU are in control. YOU make things happen. YOU will things to life.

 

xx

B

Quite interesting

I'm new to this blogging whatnot, so let me start with describing my header:

"You paint on canvass, I paint on minds."

I was never the let's draw and colour artistic type, and I thought that meant I wasn't artistic at all. That thought was a constant on my mind up until someone read one of my pieces of literature and called me an artist. I was astounded, I couldn't understand. I said I couldn't draw, and I was not creative whatsoever. He then told me that art did not soley revolve on drawings and paintings. Art meant creating something out of nothing, be it words put together or patterns intertwined. Art is art.

Thus my writing down "You paint on canvass, I paint on minds." There are different forms of art, and it so happens that the art I take pleasure in creating is the art of words, the art of planting ideas on willing minds.

xx
B