Actors.

Some people think that actors are overrated. I used to agree with them because I always thought that being a part of that industry didn't really affect the world in such a way that scientists, engineers, or architects did. Now I know that I was wrong, and I will be the first one to admit that. 

Actors are most definitely not overrated. Think about it this way, actors offer an escape. This world we live in is now so hectic, so busy, and so messy. When you are watching a film, or a show, don't you forget about all the nonsense, and just drown in a whole new world? Yes, you do. Actors give us something that we will never find if not for them. We may think that their work is all about the glitz and the glamor, but it's not. Their work is about mastering an art. It's about an art that translates into a version of reality. We get lost in their world. In the world that they created: shifts of expressions, changes of the mood, tears streaming down faces, laughter surrounding the room, and if they are masters, cheeks blushing on command.

Actors save us from reality. We owe them a lot. Maybe, just maybe, they are the sole reasons as to why not everyone has gone completely insane. 

Want.

Have you ever wanted something so bad that all you ever do is think of ways how to get what you want, or imagine scenarios that occur when what you want finally happens? You're probably going to say yes because this happens to everyone. But have you ever wondered how you could have possibly wanted something so bad at one point in your life, and not want it anymore now?

Love and loss, desire and regret, attention and apathy. All these feelings contradict each other, yet they coexist. As with passions, and drives, and determination, there comes regrets, and doubts, and questions. These feelings can surface at exactly the same moment, or light years apart. We are in control of so many things, but when it comes to feelings like these, control seeps through our finger tips. 

Embrace this freedom, crave for the changes, dance with surprises, and don't ever let the need for control to govern your actions. Sometimes, only sometimes, all the universe wants from us is for us to hand over our cares, and to just live.

Intricate Lines.

There are times when I get disappointed; I stumble upon an unsuspecting rock, or I miss a step in the staircase. It gets me off-balance, but I try to shake it off. Irritated at what happened, another mishap occurs. It's a system, and it's all intertwined. Moments like these require pauses and stops. To stop and to look at things from an outsider's point of view. Take a while to take a breath, there's no need to rush. There's beauty in every breakdown.

Reasons.

We're all here for different reasons. I went to the chapel this morning, prayed to my God. I saw other people there, but I knew we were all being listened to. It's the way it works. The God others speak to may not be the same one I picture, but I know there's only one. Different representations and different symbols, but one common destination. None of us know for sure. It's the type of thing that we only ever find out when we're already there, so let's just all wait and see. In the mean time, do whatever you think will get you there, and wish it works.

Tired.

I'm so tired. I can't explain it because once I do, my schedule probably won't seem that hectic. I still think it is, though, or maybe it's because of all the requirements that need to be submitted, all the deadlines that need to be met, and all the extra useless worrying. I would like very much to be able to sit down, and simply not think of anything. No worries, no deadlines, no requirements. All I ask for is a moment of silence and calmness. 

This sort of tired can't be fixed with rest. This sort of tired needs an escape. Lying down possibly only makes it worse because I feel like when I lie own, I'm not helping myself by starting with one of my projects, or finishing another. I need to remember that sometimes, it's OK to rest, it's OK to lay your head on a pillow, close your eyes, and breathe deeply. 

Because I know that whatever I'm worrying about now will not matter in the future. 

xx,

B

Lost.

When I'm on a trip, walking on streets I've never set foot on, it's actually quite thrilling to get lost. To turn on a wrong corner, or to keep walking when you should have already entered an ally. Being lost in a place where no one knows your name sets your heartbeat in motion with the universe.

xx

B

Slip.

That moment when you are about to slip away then you are pulled right back in again. It's a feeling of reassurance, a feeling of security. It brings peace hope once again. That moment, you smile a simple smile. Even if no one is sees, it's your way of saying 'thank you' to the universe. That moment is a pleasant feeling, it really is. 

xx

B