Reasons.

We're all here for different reasons. I went to the chapel this morning, prayed to my God. I saw other people there, but I knew we were all being listened to. It's the way it works. The God others speak to may not be the same one I picture, but I know there's only one. Different representations and different symbols, but one common destination. None of us know for sure. It's the type of thing that we only ever find out when we're already there, so let's just all wait and see. In the mean time, do whatever you think will get you there, and wish it works.

Tired.

I'm so tired. I can't explain it because once I do, my schedule probably won't seem that hectic. I still think it is, though, or maybe it's because of all the requirements that need to be submitted, all the deadlines that need to be met, and all the extra useless worrying. I would like very much to be able to sit down, and simply not think of anything. No worries, no deadlines, no requirements. All I ask for is a moment of silence and calmness. 

This sort of tired can't be fixed with rest. This sort of tired needs an escape. Lying down possibly only makes it worse because I feel like when I lie own, I'm not helping myself by starting with one of my projects, or finishing another. I need to remember that sometimes, it's OK to rest, it's OK to lay your head on a pillow, close your eyes, and breathe deeply. 

Because I know that whatever I'm worrying about now will not matter in the future. 

xx,

B